我到底需要什么？

最近，朋友都好像懂我拍拖了，又不懂哪个乌鸦嘴
唉............几个朋友知道了后，都说叫我不要喜欢她，虽然不懂什么原因
可是，我有点怕又被骗><尤其是感情.......我总是那么迟钝.....
而且女生的脾气，又怪怪的...........
一时冷一时热，我都不懂要怎样........
世上女生为什么总爱说，男生坏男生不好，不体贴不细心，
为什么不说说自己善变，爽就要不爽就不要，
女人到底是什么？......................
唉.........我不想说，等下打仗就不好！！
唉，我到底要怎样？给我点意见吧.....................
她最近也不懂怎么了，爽下就说多点话，不爽就只会“嗯，哦，啊”
我都不懂要怎样服侍你们.....
我说话，永远都有这句说这句，不喜欢的话对不起，
我不喜欢拍马屁，不会说好听的....你要听找别人.............
你好我就会说你好，你坏打死我都不会说你好....

离开我，你会不会好一点

最近，越来越懒了，因为要放假了啊！！
可是我还有一年要拼>.< 我也不知道自己能撑几久...
成绩出炉了，每科都半桶水，不上也不下的......
我的成绩永远都是那样，也不懂为什么，就算在努力多那一点点，
可能也只是好一些........就好像每科都拿b>.< 永远不能到a
为什么呢，我也不懂......可能天就是要我做一位，不是很特出，可是还蛮稳的学生....
我都不懂自己的极限在哪，每天都好累哦！！！
每天都没固定交通回家，总是在放学前要想，结果都是要麻烦朋友载我
有时我想转校，不想麻烦任何人，尤其朋友，大家都有自己的生活，不想做负担
可是就算我不读书，去做工，我也是一样，得搭巴士...............
每天看见很多人都搭巴士，他们到底怎么办到的？不累吗？我就真的很累很累了>.<
很想停下来，不走了.......工作是很辛苦，但是读书不见得容易
当你选读书，你放弃的是金钱(工钱）和工作经验，
所以只要你考不上，你两样都不见了.....................我们的压力是多大啊>.<
可是....唉.....每天都怨这个怨那个，到头来，我还是会想....
有人比我更惨吧！！三餐温饱，有书读应该很开心才对.......还怨什么....
我在家越来越少讲话了，我觉得他们都不是我谈心的对象,只有部落格^^才是
有时我会开来，看看自己以前的心情，再改一改自己的坏习惯，就能进步^^
还有偷偷说，我拍拖了，可是到现在没什么人懂吧，因为我没公开
她最近也对我冷淡，不懂是我爱乱想吧！！
我在感情里永远最迟钝的，唉。。。都不懂怎么办......
离开我，可能会好点吧......

just a dream =.=

yesterday was so hot >.<
i cant slept well yesterday nite....
i think around 2am ......i woke n go raise my fan power >.<
i dislike slept at air cond room bcz sumtime i may get flu nex day ..
thn i continue my slepting

" 6am i woke ,thn brush my teeth, wear uniform as usual ..... thn ......
something happen, a girl take my hand ...thn say she likes me .....
im so happi tht time ^^ we eat together, study together...very affectionate ^^
thn when we walk bck to her home .....she suddenly bcum a ugly monster >.<
n try to kiss me >.< ouch....so scary .......
thn ........i WOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
phew......... onli a dream ..........
im still hapi about for tht girl ^^ but ....is just a dream .....=.=

sunny day ^^

hmm.........tis few week are so hot hot hot >.<
beh tahan...sometime i feel wan take off my cloth at class....
aih.......my sweat just like water pipe......keep drifting
>..<
but sumtime.....when i saw other country face some disaster =.=thn i feel mas better....
haiyo......mayb.....nth is perfect^^
god are always like to ply us ......sometime he will gv us some problem,want we to solve it
sometime he will gv us some luck ^^make we happi ......
so....nth is impossible ......." the god will decide wher we just can plan for ourself "
hmm......im so suffer on my homework now >.<
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todaY^^ gossip again .......
count our fren bad attitude......when i counting.....i found tht i nt reli noe all my fren .....
like their likes.....their attitude >.< im nt truely care about thm ....
may my fren is rite ..........im nt serios at all , i aso dun noe when i can be more serios..
mayb exam .....mayb in a competition ..... mayb i just cant do well in any aspect
but i will try ........actually my fren tell me b4.....when im serios ..>< my face look fierce
i just try to be more happi ^^hehe....just like my principle ^^always happi .....
i will serios when i nid to ..............
anyway ^^ hapi face look more handsome .....kaka^^

account day

wtf........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg....so rude ^^....paiseh....ltr let my dai ga jie saw ...sure scold me ....
but today reli tired >.< teacher =".="">.<>.<>.< but=".="">.<....... ++ after tht >.<>.<>.<>.< i cant handle it .......
hehe.......mayb i nid someone to accompany me ^^ like gf？ haha...................
tis question .....i think ....a long period i nt to think about it ....
mayb im scare i cant find gf when finish skul.....mayb after my studies....im just busy on my work ...haha.....but i will try now ^^......anyway......dun hv any target tim ^^.....hehe
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aih.....i just think for my future now ^^.........
my fren ^^ must always happi o ...
if anyone sad ^^ im seven-eleven....mean....i will always open my ear
n be a good listener ^^

我很弱？

最近发现一样东西，我有时很爱忍，忍到我现在有点讨厌
其实也没什么，有时我觉得自己很好利用
嗯！！说看驾车吧，我看我全部朋友都有车牌了吧
有时载载朋友我觉得没什么，
最近觉得很麻烦，难道我变了吗
以前只要朋友叫到，我就意不容迟，因为我觉得难得能聚一聚
我住在蛮远的......其实我觉得还好，只是我一说sg buloh他们就一定说，好远哦
其实如果没塞车，不用十分钟，我能从我家到增江了
说到要载我，我看没人会理我吧，朋友没车，就会叫我载咯
一般上我都会答应的，如果有，
过后我觉得有时越来越过分，不懂是我自私了>.<还是怎么了
我会找借口，拒绝他们，
真的觉得自己很弱，我很好利用吗？其实我以前都觉得只要你开心我就开心的原则
现在也是.......可是被利用的我，就没有人来帮下我？
可能我真的变了.....觉得自己什么都变弱了，运动，课业，感情，家庭，
样样都好像很多不顺利的事.........
不过，有个长辈告诉我，人生不是事事都会顺利的，看你怎么把它解决而已
而且要每天开心，是很难的^^不过开朗的面对每件事，事情自然就会顺利了

在干嘛

好久好久没写了........功课太多，都忘了
我觉得进了中六，凡事都懂了点点，经济啊，生意，政治，甚至感情我都学了点点，
说真的，当我十八岁了，我以为我还可以做一位不知天高地厚的小子
原来不可以>.<我必须认真，成熟，我有在努力了^^
现在只想考好试，别的就别烦我吧.........
有时我想抛弃功课，一开始学压力还好，慢慢地，越来越多要读要记>.<
就很累了，有时不懂怎么办，还想哭出来^^
不过，我知道一切都会好起来^^只要继续努力，先苦后甜嘛........
最近发现一样东西^^冲凉原来不止可以干净
也可以冲醒自己^^只要我做功课做到累了，我就会去冲个凉，就会清醒
开着花洒，大大力地冲自己的头.......然后静静的几分钟，会很舒服......
我以前还很讨厌冲凉^^很麻烦....
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一早起身，有几次不想去学校，（可以就好）
在课上，真的要很专心>.<不然就什么都学不到，
不过很开心有几个好老师^^最敬仰的pn tan，她教会了我好多好多
无论功课还是课外，她都爱直话直说，我就是喜欢这样的人
不喜欢口是心非，自私自利的人......
今天她叫我们多说英文^^
lets start english now ^^......
actually.....my english very poor==
i think mayb at singapore,children aso can speak well thn me ....
teacher is right.....we nid to improve our english.....now is nt too late ^^
she suggest we find a english educate bf or gf^^ haha.....tht nt fair..
chinese educate aso can speak well la ^^......nt me la >.<
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tis few day very free bcz my muet teacher, pp teacher are nt here...........
normally^^ wat student will do if teacher are nt here? gossip lo ^^
i nt like gosip actually =.= just like aunty at market ther....
but sumtime gossip aso can noe many thing ^^ .....this is malaysian style.....like to gossip....
anyway i stil nt reli like gossip....
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erm.......i think i wan try sumthing new in my life....
everytime my parent try to protect me .....nt let me ply tis nt let me try tht....
but im 18 now .....i think i should try it ....but nt drug tht kind of stuff.
like .....i want to ply drum....wan to learn locking......wan to learn more about cooking...
mother ........if u nt let me step out the 1st step.........when i cant walk ?
i wan to drive to sunway.......i noe is far ....im can take k myself ^^bcz i got my fren company me ^^y dun you just let me try once.......
aih......mayb tis day will fall ....im stil look like a boy for my mummy =.=
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i will try my best for everything now ^^for my life .....for my studies........n for my future ^^