今天又在家发呆^^

今天有种特别的感觉^^就是吃醋><
一向来，我都很少吃醋，因为我觉得是老婆的朋友，也没什么吧
k可是最近有个老朋友一直干扰他，我也认识的，
一开始，我也觉得没什么，过了几天，我就越来越气。。。。
开始吃醋了吧，他们聊得很开心我就在旁边越来越气，
w我都在控制，毕竟是朋友，我也不想骂人^^我脾气都很好啊。。。
哈哈!!其实我脾气也不是很好的，因为我怕得罪人，所以我都会控制自己的情绪
k控制不到再说吧^^我也不懂会变怎样，可能一发不可收拾，可能“杀死人”
哈哈^^ 应该没人看过我发飚吧，我很生气很生气的时候，会哭的
><真的很眼浅><下次要忍
今天又没东西作><不想了。。。考试要加油^^做功课咯....

我都忘了....

忘了我有blog^^哈哈.....
也好，没人会来看了吧!!
最近生活都还不错,只是放假没得旅行，蛮闷的!!
在家休养咯^^想起考试那个礼拜，我真的好累!!读书挨到差点变babymilo
还记得以前嘴巴肿了上来><吓死我..........考试时又来了
可能熬夜吧.....不过现在好多了^^又可以开怀大笑了.......
好久没看到以前的朋友了^^有了自己的生活果然比较忙..
不想以前说完就去玩，说出就出，
有时很喜欢回忆以前的东西，为什么总觉得以前的生活比现在好
哈哈!!可能人越来越大时，就会忘记生活的意义，就只是为了钱?
挨多半年，就能上大学了^^很期待，也很希望能上到，
b毕竟我暂时的愿望就是上大学^^下次就要拼了
d大家加油^^

想你

我的面子书被人盗了，密码也被换了
所以很久都没找朋友，不知道大家如何^^
希望大家都健康，我呢
就病了三个礼拜，假期都泡汤了，
算了，没心情..............
还好,还有她陪^^
如果有朋友想我，text me ^^

放假咯

今天放假第三天了，我已经没有心情读书了
今天我连补习都没去>.<会不会是因为拍拖影响
最怕就是那样，要控制下！！！
真的只想睡睡觉，懒惰多几天
因为这半年真的好累好累
现在难得休息^^可是功课也不能忘记咯！！
.....
跟她在一起一个月咯^^
难过的几天已经过了，因为我已经清楚她的决定^^
这几天都有去找她，我们每次傻傻都不懂要去哪里
一上车，我就问她要去哪里，他总会说^^不懂哦
变到以前没主见的我，都变有主见了^^
他不喜欢多多人的地方，所以我想去公园^^
他都让我决定.......>.<哎哟
如果我不是住那么远，我就每天去找她了>.<
唉唉^^遗憾〉。。。。

我到底需要什么？

最近，朋友都好像懂我拍拖了，又不懂哪个乌鸦嘴
唉............几个朋友知道了后，都说叫我不要喜欢她，虽然不懂什么原因
可是，我有点怕又被骗><尤其是感情.......我总是那么迟钝.....
而且女生的脾气，又怪怪的...........
一时冷一时热，我都不懂要怎样........
世上女生为什么总爱说，男生坏男生不好，不体贴不细心，
为什么不说说自己善变，爽就要不爽就不要，
女人到底是什么？......................
唉.........我不想说，等下打仗就不好！！
唉，我到底要怎样？给我点意见吧.....................
她最近也不懂怎么了，爽下就说多点话，不爽就只会“嗯，哦，啊”
我都不懂要怎样服侍你们.....
我说话，永远都有这句说这句，不喜欢的话对不起，
我不喜欢拍马屁，不会说好听的....你要听找别人.............
你好我就会说你好，你坏打死我都不会说你好....

离开我，你会不会好一点

最近，越来越懒了，因为要放假了啊！！
可是我还有一年要拼>.< 我也不知道自己能撑几久...
成绩出炉了，每科都半桶水，不上也不下的......
我的成绩永远都是那样，也不懂为什么，就算在努力多那一点点，
可能也只是好一些........就好像每科都拿b>.< 永远不能到a
为什么呢，我也不懂......可能天就是要我做一位，不是很特出，可是还蛮稳的学生....
我都不懂自己的极限在哪，每天都好累哦！！！
每天都没固定交通回家，总是在放学前要想，结果都是要麻烦朋友载我
有时我想转校，不想麻烦任何人，尤其朋友，大家都有自己的生活，不想做负担
可是就算我不读书，去做工，我也是一样，得搭巴士...............
每天看见很多人都搭巴士，他们到底怎么办到的？不累吗？我就真的很累很累了>.<
很想停下来，不走了.......工作是很辛苦，但是读书不见得容易
当你选读书，你放弃的是金钱(工钱）和工作经验，
所以只要你考不上，你两样都不见了.....................我们的压力是多大啊>.<
可是....唉.....每天都怨这个怨那个，到头来，我还是会想....
有人比我更惨吧！！三餐温饱，有书读应该很开心才对.......还怨什么....
我在家越来越少讲话了，我觉得他们都不是我谈心的对象,只有部落格^^才是
有时我会开来，看看自己以前的心情，再改一改自己的坏习惯，就能进步^^
还有偷偷说，我拍拖了，可是到现在没什么人懂吧，因为我没公开
她最近也对我冷淡，不懂是我爱乱想吧！！
我在感情里永远最迟钝的，唉。。。都不懂怎么办......
离开我，可能会好点吧......

just a dream =.=

yesterday was so hot >.<
i cant slept well yesterday nite....
i think around 2am ......i woke n go raise my fan power >.<
i dislike slept at air cond room bcz sumtime i may get flu nex day ..
thn i continue my slepting

" 6am i woke ,thn brush my teeth, wear uniform as usual ..... thn ......
something happen, a girl take my hand ...thn say she likes me .....
im so happi tht time ^^ we eat together, study together...very affectionate ^^
thn when we walk bck to her home .....she suddenly bcum a ugly monster >.<
n try to kiss me >.< ouch....so scary .......
thn ........i WOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
phew......... onli a dream ..........
im still hapi about for tht girl ^^ but ....is just a dream .....=.=

sunny day ^^

hmm.........tis few week are so hot hot hot >.<
beh tahan...sometime i feel wan take off my cloth at class....
aih.......my sweat just like water pipe......keep drifting
>..<
but sumtime.....when i saw other country face some disaster =.=thn i feel mas better....
haiyo......mayb.....nth is perfect^^
god are always like to ply us ......sometime he will gv us some problem,want we to solve it
sometime he will gv us some luck ^^make we happi ......
so....nth is impossible ......." the god will decide wher we just can plan for ourself "
hmm......im so suffer on my homework now >.<
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todaY^^ gossip again .......
count our fren bad attitude......when i counting.....i found tht i nt reli noe all my fren .....
like their likes.....their attitude >.< im nt truely care about thm ....
may my fren is rite ..........im nt serios at all , i aso dun noe when i can be more serios..
mayb exam .....mayb in a competition ..... mayb i just cant do well in any aspect
but i will try ........actually my fren tell me b4.....when im serios ..>< my face look fierce
i just try to be more happi ^^hehe....just like my principle ^^always happi .....
i will serios when i nid to ..............
anyway ^^ hapi face look more handsome .....kaka^^

account day

wtf........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg....so rude ^^....paiseh....ltr let my dai ga jie saw ...sure scold me ....
but today reli tired >.< teacher =".="">.<>.<>.< but=".="">.<....... ++ after tht >.<>.<>.<>.< i cant handle it .......
hehe.......mayb i nid someone to accompany me ^^ like gf？ haha...................
tis question .....i think ....a long period i nt to think about it ....
mayb im scare i cant find gf when finish skul.....mayb after my studies....im just busy on my work ...haha.....but i will try now ^^......anyway......dun hv any target tim ^^.....hehe
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aih.....i just think for my future now ^^.........
my fren ^^ must always happi o ...
if anyone sad ^^ im seven-eleven....mean....i will always open my ear
n be a good listener ^^

我很弱？

最近发现一样东西，我有时很爱忍，忍到我现在有点讨厌
其实也没什么，有时我觉得自己很好利用
嗯！！说看驾车吧，我看我全部朋友都有车牌了吧
有时载载朋友我觉得没什么，
最近觉得很麻烦，难道我变了吗
以前只要朋友叫到，我就意不容迟，因为我觉得难得能聚一聚
我住在蛮远的......其实我觉得还好，只是我一说sg buloh他们就一定说，好远哦
其实如果没塞车，不用十分钟，我能从我家到增江了
说到要载我，我看没人会理我吧，朋友没车，就会叫我载咯
一般上我都会答应的，如果有，
过后我觉得有时越来越过分，不懂是我自私了>.<还是怎么了
我会找借口，拒绝他们，
真的觉得自己很弱，我很好利用吗？其实我以前都觉得只要你开心我就开心的原则
现在也是.......可是被利用的我，就没有人来帮下我？
可能我真的变了.....觉得自己什么都变弱了，运动，课业，感情，家庭，
样样都好像很多不顺利的事.........
不过，有个长辈告诉我，人生不是事事都会顺利的，看你怎么把它解决而已
而且要每天开心，是很难的^^不过开朗的面对每件事，事情自然就会顺利了

在干嘛

好久好久没写了........功课太多，都忘了
我觉得进了中六，凡事都懂了点点，经济啊，生意，政治，甚至感情我都学了点点，
说真的，当我十八岁了，我以为我还可以做一位不知天高地厚的小子
原来不可以>.<我必须认真，成熟，我有在努力了^^
现在只想考好试，别的就别烦我吧.........
有时我想抛弃功课，一开始学压力还好，慢慢地，越来越多要读要记>.<
就很累了，有时不懂怎么办，还想哭出来^^
不过，我知道一切都会好起来^^只要继续努力，先苦后甜嘛........
最近发现一样东西^^冲凉原来不止可以干净
也可以冲醒自己^^只要我做功课做到累了，我就会去冲个凉，就会清醒
开着花洒，大大力地冲自己的头.......然后静静的几分钟，会很舒服......
我以前还很讨厌冲凉^^很麻烦....
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一早起身，有几次不想去学校，（可以就好）
在课上，真的要很专心>.<不然就什么都学不到，
不过很开心有几个好老师^^最敬仰的pn tan，她教会了我好多好多
无论功课还是课外，她都爱直话直说，我就是喜欢这样的人
不喜欢口是心非，自私自利的人......
今天她叫我们多说英文^^
lets start english now ^^......
actually.....my english very poor==
i think mayb at singapore,children aso can speak well thn me ....
teacher is right.....we nid to improve our english.....now is nt too late ^^
she suggest we find a english educate bf or gf^^ haha.....tht nt fair..
chinese educate aso can speak well la ^^......nt me la >.<
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tis few day very free bcz my muet teacher, pp teacher are nt here...........
normally^^ wat student will do if teacher are nt here? gossip lo ^^
i nt like gosip actually =.= just like aunty at market ther....
but sumtime gossip aso can noe many thing ^^ .....this is malaysian style.....like to gossip....
anyway i stil nt reli like gossip....
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erm.......i think i wan try sumthing new in my life....
everytime my parent try to protect me .....nt let me ply tis nt let me try tht....
but im 18 now .....i think i should try it ....but nt drug tht kind of stuff.
like .....i want to ply drum....wan to learn locking......wan to learn more about cooking...
mother ........if u nt let me step out the 1st step.........when i cant walk ?
i wan to drive to sunway.......i noe is far ....im can take k myself ^^bcz i got my fren company me ^^y dun you just let me try once.......
aih......mayb tis day will fall ....im stil look like a boy for my mummy =.=
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i will try my best for everything now ^^for my life .....for my studies........n for my future ^^

心情

怎样形容好呢....就像满空的星星，多到窒息
像人山人海的one u，走到哪里都很难呼吸
在三岔路时，要选对路，是很难得
是看你怎样闯这条路，每条路都有未来，有的黑暗，有的明亮
很开心因为有个朋友正往她的人生目标发展，希望她能成功
我呢....走着的，不知道前面是什么，也还没有心理准备去面对，
很怕是黑暗的，那时候我应该怎么做呢.....
以前，我的电话从不离手，因为我觉得交多点朋友是好事，
现在忙了，电话也很少在我手出现，朋友也很少见面了
有时我会觉得，宠物真的能派上用场，可是我也不是很喜欢狗之类的，没有喜欢的...
那只有家人能陪了，人家说，情侣朋友能选，家人就不能选了，所以就算有几坏的父母，
我们也应该包容，做个适当的决定.....
笑容究竟是掩饰品，还是真心情？我也不清楚.....
我.....好像不见了，这段时间都在想，我到底是什么样的人
真的需要一个像我老师的朋友（直肠直肚）我不爱想听废话多多
只想听重点.....
我啊.....慢慢的...好像不见了.....变得怎样了呢....
这些心声，可能就流出去，也不会回来了....
我想....我会回来的.....

过去的

过去的只能回味吧，
今天一早，还是如往常很早就醒了，以前的话，我一定是在玩电脑
现在......弟弟“继承”了我，他每天都玩不停，就像以前的我
无论被骂还是发生什么事，都是只会玩......看到他我就想到以前我
不想他也那样，骂他也不听......可能这只是过程，到了我这年纪才知错吧
哈哈！！好像领悟到什么似的.....傻了
过后我们一家就去公园运动打羽球，也忘了几时，我们每个礼拜都一家人一起运动
过了很久了，现在才有时间，聚在一起运动，原来我们生活都变了.....
哥哥做工了，现在的我都在忙功课，以前我哪里会做功课的，睬他都傻
弟弟也会玩电脑，都没那么好动了，爸妈工作也忙了....那么老了，真想赶快出来做工
以前啊，都会运动到很久，过后妈妈就会在窗口喊我们回家.....
哈哈！！想到以前就好笑......过后我们没带水，就会喊妈妈丢下来咯^^
今天也是那样，蛮好玩的......休息了下就去吃早餐咯.....
现在有车了，有时间都到处飞啦......
我最近又做回宅男了，唉......不懂怎么，就不想出街吧！！
也没什么吧，很压力吧！！不过相信会好的.....
就来放假了，可是功课多到walao！！
也不懂会怎么过，哈哈....顺其自然吧
很饿了^^找东西吃了

reli tired ~~~~

actually .....sumthing happen......
thn......i try to use homework to....divert my attention to nt think about it ..
i think .....tis few day...i reach my limit...i nid a rest ....
aih......everyday is just a boring life.....
except hw .......aso is hw .........
i try to relax now .....^^
if nt ....mayb i will explode >.< haha.....
nth i can do now .....mood less.....boring.......whn onli my life will more colourful ?? after my study ?? whn i working ????aih,,,,....

14 august~~

tired tired tired ......................
form 6 life reli tired ......
if nt hardworking....reli cant handle...
tis few day ...my fren is planing stop form 6 >.<
aih.....altough im sad....but ....i think i should let her chase her dream...
she said form 6 r reli stress......tht true...i aso feel..stress>.<
if u lazy for just short period.....u will fall behind so many .....
erm....wish her can do better at outside ^^

relax^^

yeah ^^ finally finish my 1st exam ...
but i think i cant get a high mark.....bcz it is reli tough
actually ......tis exam just include one or 2 bab onli ...
i aso feel very hard.......wat will happen when the exam include all bab>.<
omg.....i cant imagine tht.......die >~<
but i will try my best ^^
now........let go to saw a movie 1st^^ with my fren ^^
bye!!~~~

missing sumthing?

tis few day .......my mood was bad......
dunno y .....feel so tired......mayb i very late slept tis few day
feel so stress on my homework......so tough n hard to understand
until now ....i onli noe y senior say form6 nid to pay more work on it ....
ah......i stil duno y 10 subjek in spm is easier thn stpm tht onli 5 subjek..
aih.....i think i reli nid some help....
n my life was so boring.......b4 tht my form 5 life was better...
now.....everyday i wake up at 6 am....thn preparing....go to school.
thn concentrate in my class......if at form5 i denfinitely fall slept ...
duno y i can tahan^^ thn.....go home ...slept ...thn wake up eat dinner....thn do homework .....thn slept .......wat the fuck....so boring activities.....
ah......somebody help me a .......
now ....slept lol=.=gudnite

cold sunday......

actually .....i dun like sunday .....
but ^^ today is a family day.....so...i dun like hanging out today ^^
bcz....hv u think b4 ...did u spend ur time with ur parent b4 ?
talking with thm ?.....hv a meal with thm ?.....asking thm how their work ?
everybody noe tht.....family is very very important.......
u should protect every member of your family...like they protect u
they teaching u .....gv u everything u nid........
so?!!! wat did u do on sunday ?^^
today ^^ weather are so cold ...look like wan rain soon...
i like tis weather ^^ cold cold ...a good sleeping time ^^ haha
morning .....mummy go market to buy ingredient for dinner ^^
i go market b4 with my mummy ^^ ther was so many ppl ....mayb u can eat touhu tim ^^
haha.....but ..dun do it ^^
ask urself...did u go market with ur mummy ? ^^ did u noe very tired when walking n argue with these seller? haha....gv urself a chance ^^ try to do tht...
after tht ^^ i hv a breakfas with my family ^^ just a mee....but very happy...
after tht ^^ i wan chase drama with my mummy .....we r drama fans ..haha
but sometime i very busy with homework...cannot accompany her ...
we saw drama about 6 -7hour,nonstop.....wa scary ^^
after tht i go to ply football^^i try to plan one week minimun nid to exercise one time ...b4 tht im sunshine boy leh^^
haha^^ long time no exercise oledi >.nex year i will going gym every week ^^ train my body ...thn i will nt look so weak la ^^n i got no idea y most of the girl dun like exercise?
tht is gud for health wor ^^ plz think think tht......
mayb girl got their hardship la ^^i wish can find a girlfren who is sporting la ^^

plz think.......

2day .....a little sad about my fren situation
...she is being false by every her fren
said she was cheating a boy ......
bcz tht guy was like her.....but she till now dun wan pak tuo with him
actually she just dun wan pak tuo so early ....
n the guy care for her ,buy thing...spend money for her...
tht was tht guy action ......she never force him lo
plz la fren.....love never ask pay bck frm ur lover....
dun be pat gong pat po la .....i hate it ....dun let me saw "u"
i will kill....u all.....rubbish.....

tired tired.......

phew....so fas....friday oledi ^^
my favourite day ^^ actually im so happy ....n my mood aso very gud ^^
mayb u call me belanja u makan ^^ i will do tht....
so if wan me belanja ^^ wait friday la ^^ haha
but today i was so tired.........when akaun class......pn baljit nt come again >.<
sad......im very like akaun leh.....y like tht la >.i dun like p.a ....but y she always come la >.< so bising geh teacher...
after school .....i waiting my fren at pengawas room ....i find out sumthing
now the day.....the kid form 1 are so "small" =.=
omg.........just like tiny size.....aih....y like tht a ?
eat more la ^^ saw my junior so small....feel so sad....look so weak la ..
n girl aso ^^ plzz...la ....altough u all dun like fat .....but dun too slim
like my fren .......b4 a......she slim until wind aso can blow her away....
so dangerous........
medium fat look very nice aso de ma ^^gambateh la ^^
thn.....i go kota raya tuition...omg ...we r reli late oledi ..
3 30 stil at bus stp......420 will start...
we r late about 15 minit........phew...so kong bu ..so many student ther..
feel tht the teacher reli gud meh?......stil okie lo .....
he tell ur many story ....about politic....i gt noe nth about politic...
bcz i nt reli read newspaper la ....if i read...mostly will read entertainment or sport onli la ....
hehe......after tht i reach home at 730 ....ah...reli tired....wan slept jo...